Spring is coming.
I don't know how many share the same feeling as i do; that though it's still windy as usual (people living in the east side of singapore; or rather around east coast/tg. katong), the wind isn't as cool in February as compared back in December.
Pretty much it's the same every year. The wind feels more heart warming though; at least to me as i walk alone out at night, to clear my mind or to get my food.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Day 134
Had quite interesting convo with Darren, my PT today. He was trying to find out why made me decided to start gymming now; cos usually ppl would just bo chap and live on the rest of their live at their comfort zone (frankly speaking, i nv liked trainings). He was also surprised to find out that i just walked down personally to apply for membership; cos ppl usually try to get referrals or call in and check out the packages etc b4 applying.
Anyway, it all boils down to: "what makes you start on a new endeavour/decision?"; and "how do you start it?"
I'm not going much in to reasons why i'll uptake a new challenge in life; there're just too many reasons.
Anyway, in the past, i spent lots of time thinking why should i start something. I need plenty of justifications, but it doesn't end there. Let's say i decided to start a new habit; umm, like driving, i'll think of the best way to start the lessons. So i would tend to spend another long long time just to ensure that i'll do things perfectly (how regular should i go? How much time will i have/week? What activities will be affected? etc); because once i start, i take things seriously and i wanna ensure that i hit the goals.
Just like what Quality Management classes always teach, "Do things right the first time", "Fail to plan = Plan to fail." bla bla bla bla bla..
This resulted in plenty of tasks undone because there's too little time to execute all the "plans". Of course, while tasks that eventually begun, most are done flawlessly.
Recently i found myself changed; in a way, i still think a lot of whether to start an endeavour. However, instead of spending more time thinking "how to do" for most tasks in life, i just jump in blindly and trial and errors. In fact, i do plenty of trial and errors even on whether to start a new plan in life.
To fail and take the rough (not hard) path is definitely challenging; but often it's the fastest way to pick up a new skill/knowledge/experience.
Probably this is the effect of "aging"? When you realize that there's not much time as compared to the past.
While people tends to get more careful as the grow older, relying on past experience on making decision; i found myself even more dire to try out/experience the unknown in life.
I hit myself with stones often, but just to laugh over things when i made blunders. I feel that life is stressful enough to take all things seriously; and most things ain't as serious as they seem.
While definitely, there's still a fine line where i'll be the old serious man; definitely the line gets thinner and graying out.
Probably this is the fun side in my life now i guess.
Anyway, something fun to share with u all; taken from overheard@nus facebook group
and the song looping for the night;
the full MV: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PfNwO9HNqh4
P.S.: and i just learnt how to open up and relax when i'm with u, but u're gone the next day. I just hope that it's not going back to my oldself when i see u again in May/June lol.
Anyway, it all boils down to: "what makes you start on a new endeavour/decision?"; and "how do you start it?"
I'm not going much in to reasons why i'll uptake a new challenge in life; there're just too many reasons.
Anyway, in the past, i spent lots of time thinking why should i start something. I need plenty of justifications, but it doesn't end there. Let's say i decided to start a new habit; umm, like driving, i'll think of the best way to start the lessons. So i would tend to spend another long long time just to ensure that i'll do things perfectly (how regular should i go? How much time will i have/week? What activities will be affected? etc); because once i start, i take things seriously and i wanna ensure that i hit the goals.
Just like what Quality Management classes always teach, "Do things right the first time", "Fail to plan = Plan to fail." bla bla bla bla bla..
This resulted in plenty of tasks undone because there's too little time to execute all the "plans". Of course, while tasks that eventually begun, most are done flawlessly.
Recently i found myself changed; in a way, i still think a lot of whether to start an endeavour. However, instead of spending more time thinking "how to do" for most tasks in life, i just jump in blindly and trial and errors. In fact, i do plenty of trial and errors even on whether to start a new plan in life.
Probably this is the effect of "aging"? When you realize that there's not much time as compared to the past.
While people tends to get more careful as the grow older, relying on past experience on making decision; i found myself even more dire to try out/experience the unknown in life.
I hit myself with stones often, but just to laugh over things when i made blunders. I feel that life is stressful enough to take all things seriously; and most things ain't as serious as they seem.
While definitely, there's still a fine line where i'll be the old serious man; definitely the line gets thinner and graying out.
Probably this is the fun side in my life now i guess.
Anyway, something fun to share with u all; taken from overheard@nus facebook group
and the song looping for the night;
the full MV: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PfNwO9HNqh4
P.S.: and i just learnt how to open up and relax when i'm with u, but u're gone the next day. I just hope that it's not going back to my oldself when i see u again in May/June lol.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Day 133 : common denominator..
Had a rather interesting weekend. Parents joked with me about recent loss in stock market rofl. I told them i'm not worried; it's a pity but it's just time to pull out and spot a better time to reap back later.
Made my mistake though, could have drove a car away if i pulled out 2 weeks earlier; instead of what mom said; someone just drove a new car away!! haha. I guess that's life. Don't get too greedy!
Projects tasks are piling uP! Yet there's still not much motivation to do paperworks. Tomorrow will be the day to clear all shit before and after gym training!!
P.S.: Am i reading too much in to it? But i'm afraid that if i don't, i might neglect your needs.. Probably this is how distance comes in to play as a factor. At the same time, i'm telling myself; i'm too serious at the moment. Probably i should lighten up the mood & learn to enjoy the current situation eh.
Anyway, Switzerland definitely sounds fun; especially for a week. Have a great time :)
Made my mistake though, could have drove a car away if i pulled out 2 weeks earlier; instead of what mom said; someone just drove a new car away!! haha. I guess that's life. Don't get too greedy!
Projects tasks are piling uP! Yet there's still not much motivation to do paperworks. Tomorrow will be the day to clear all shit before and after gym training!!
P.S.: Am i reading too much in to it? But i'm afraid that if i don't, i might neglect your needs.. Probably this is how distance comes in to play as a factor. At the same time, i'm telling myself; i'm too serious at the moment. Probably i should lighten up the mood & learn to enjoy the current situation eh.
Anyway, Switzerland definitely sounds fun; especially for a week. Have a great time :)
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Day 131: Burnt out
Missed another day of entry; probably will miss many more in the coming days. Inspirations and ideas are there, but they're just seemed so cluttered for me even to just think about; not talking about writing down.
I've been thinking too much too, that i almost got myself in to accident not once, not twice, but 3x over the past 4 days. Well, mostly just speeding at 120km/h passing a traffic light going red.
Last night while chatting with Mut over Skype; i can't remember what the topic were, but unconsciously i told him i feel burnt out; with school work. Probably with everything in my life at the moment.
There's just a feeling that i've over stretched myself in almost every corner of my life; 4 semester of overloading work and filling up holidays with special term; overworking on the stock market; overwork myself on chasing a relationship; overwork myself worrying & thinking off solutions with home problem; worrying for Rabbit's well-being; etc etc; mostly all within 6 months.
Last holiday was spent badly too; i didn't get much rest as desired, and i was down with sickness over the last 3 weeks; and a cough that i'm still carrying it with me now. The reason is clear; and i know it very well. I'm learning to cope with it too, while i would appreciate if i could get some help from the source; yet i know i've to cope with everything myself over these period.
Despite so; i'm still quite confident that this semester will be over smoothly, just that i'll definitely do things slower. At the same time, i'm going to spend more time balancing up my life; that's to do things that i really want now; working up my fitness and sort.
I don't know how regular i'll update the blog, though i'm sure it won't end. To me, this blog is a hope; and it will only ends when the hope disappears.
P.S.: tired.
I've been thinking too much too, that i almost got myself in to accident not once, not twice, but 3x over the past 4 days. Well, mostly just speeding at 120km/h passing a traffic light going red.
Last night while chatting with Mut over Skype; i can't remember what the topic were, but unconsciously i told him i feel burnt out; with school work. Probably with everything in my life at the moment.
There's just a feeling that i've over stretched myself in almost every corner of my life; 4 semester of overloading work and filling up holidays with special term; overworking on the stock market; overwork myself on chasing a relationship; overwork myself worrying & thinking off solutions with home problem; worrying for Rabbit's well-being; etc etc; mostly all within 6 months.
Last holiday was spent badly too; i didn't get much rest as desired, and i was down with sickness over the last 3 weeks; and a cough that i'm still carrying it with me now. The reason is clear; and i know it very well. I'm learning to cope with it too, while i would appreciate if i could get some help from the source; yet i know i've to cope with everything myself over these period.
Despite so; i'm still quite confident that this semester will be over smoothly, just that i'll definitely do things slower. At the same time, i'm going to spend more time balancing up my life; that's to do things that i really want now; working up my fitness and sort.
I don't know how regular i'll update the blog, though i'm sure it won't end. To me, this blog is a hope; and it will only ends when the hope disappears.
P.S.: tired.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Day 129
Good communication and social takes an effort.
After working with Soren & people, i realized the need to always remind ourselves to keep the spirit/morale/mood up/high when we're communicating with each other, and especially in a group.
It's actually very easy. For example:
A: "hey, i can't make it on this timing. Can we meet the next day same timing instead?"
B: "Great! I think that timing is just perfect!"
A will generally be more grateful and enthusiastic to attend the meeting, than if B were to reply:
B: "Ok can. Anything."
See the difference??
Some might feel that such gestures are minimal or hyprocrite alike at best; but it does make a lot of difference. People generally be more willing to catch up with you, and likely to tell you truth because they think that you are "optimistic" & open enough; or able to handle with variations/unexpected.
Smiles & happiness pass around. Some days when you feel really down, you might be surprised if the good deeds you do come back from people whom you least expect off, and cheered up the blues of the day.
Make the difference today people, start with these small gestures people! : ) = )
P.S.: Glad to know that stuff has arrived! : ) =) !!
After working with Soren & people, i realized the need to always remind ourselves to keep the spirit/morale/mood up/high when we're communicating with each other, and especially in a group.
It's actually very easy. For example:
A: "hey, i can't make it on this timing. Can we meet the next day same timing instead?"
B: "Great! I think that timing is just perfect!"
A will generally be more grateful and enthusiastic to attend the meeting, than if B were to reply:
B: "Ok can. Anything."
See the difference??
Some might feel that such gestures are minimal or hyprocrite alike at best; but it does make a lot of difference. People generally be more willing to catch up with you, and likely to tell you truth because they think that you are "optimistic" & open enough; or able to handle with variations/unexpected.
Smiles & happiness pass around. Some days when you feel really down, you might be surprised if the good deeds you do come back from people whom you least expect off, and cheered up the blues of the day.
Make the difference today people, start with these small gestures people! : ) = )
P.S.: Glad to know that stuff has arrived! : ) =) !!
Monday, February 1, 2010
day 128
@school
Submitted my Dissertation; and i'm already thinking of furnishing up my back up plan. No idea why i've so little confidence with my first proposal. Probably because it's more of a FUN idea instead of a proper one. Well, give the first try. No harm : )
Projects meetings are filling up my free time now, yet i'm still unable to really focus on school work. Much part of my mind are still circling around things later the year.
@heart
I saw Van's plans for upcoming Vday; and i felt kinda down. Well, definitely things could be better; but i guess i just got to make the most out of all my creativity in a good way.
Take me away from here..
About the trip in June, looks like i just need to apply for Schengen Visa, and there's already an easy way out. That's to head out to Denmark first; and get assistance from Soren & put his address. Ding! I'm sure i'll be able to obtain the Visa within 2 weeks! Probably i'll just need to stay in Copenhagen for 3-4 nights and it will all be my time to have real fuN!
Countries are lined up; left cities. I hope to confirm all the plans by end of Feb.
Submitted my Dissertation; and i'm already thinking of furnishing up my back up plan. No idea why i've so little confidence with my first proposal. Probably because it's more of a FUN idea instead of a proper one. Well, give the first try. No harm : )
Projects meetings are filling up my free time now, yet i'm still unable to really focus on school work. Much part of my mind are still circling around things later the year.
@heart
I saw Van's plans for upcoming Vday; and i felt kinda down. Well, definitely things could be better; but i guess i just got to make the most out of all my creativity in a good way.
Take me away from here..
About the trip in June, looks like i just need to apply for Schengen Visa, and there's already an easy way out. That's to head out to Denmark first; and get assistance from Soren & put his address. Ding! I'm sure i'll be able to obtain the Visa within 2 weeks! Probably i'll just need to stay in Copenhagen for 3-4 nights and it will all be my time to have real fuN!
Countries are lined up; left cities. I hope to confirm all the plans by end of Feb.
Ciaoz.
Tasks on hand by 23.59:
1. Marketing group admin work
2. Marketing lect read up
3. Intel building research
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Day 127
Had quite an interesting day, probably after few long sleeps, finally my mind is able to function properly.
Firstly, dissertation proposal pretty much settled now. Tmr going to approach to TEK for his advice; yes or no, i'll still go along with it cos i'm too lazy to make last minute changes. The topic can be changed after Tuesday.
2ndly, June travel; I thought of Soren & i asked myself, why not let's head out to Denmark since i'm already halfway there! And ding! Soren said he'll be in Denmark in June! Though he'll be working on his Thesis, and he's gonna write me letter of invitation for my VISA!!!!!!! WOoohOoo! So it looks like i'm gonna have real good time in June, and bye bye to internship.
3rdly, had some fun today. Got myself tanned a bit, and i kinda like it actually. Since i've 5 modules now, there's slack. Probably i'll just slack-the-slack off getting myself weekly tan like i've did back in Poly. Just feel like getting myself a new image by mid of '10, and shaped up by end of the year. It's time. Been holding back too much in the past; but since i've already found 'The One', there's little need to be bothered with my concerns now : ) = )
That's all for the moment!
List of work to be done:
1. PF3301 Research
2. PF3303 Research
3. MKT2401 Research & group admin stuff
4. Dissertation wrap up
Firstly, dissertation proposal pretty much settled now. Tmr going to approach to TEK for his advice; yes or no, i'll still go along with it cos i'm too lazy to make last minute changes. The topic can be changed after Tuesday.
2ndly, June travel; I thought of Soren & i asked myself, why not let's head out to Denmark since i'm already halfway there! And ding! Soren said he'll be in Denmark in June! Though he'll be working on his Thesis, and he's gonna write me letter of invitation for my VISA!!!!!!! WOoohOoo! So it looks like i'm gonna have real good time in June, and bye bye to internship.
3rdly, had some fun today. Got myself tanned a bit, and i kinda like it actually. Since i've 5 modules now, there's slack. Probably i'll just slack-the-slack off getting myself weekly tan like i've did back in Poly. Just feel like getting myself a new image by mid of '10, and shaped up by end of the year. It's time. Been holding back too much in the past; but since i've already found 'The One', there's little need to be bothered with my concerns now : ) = )
That's all for the moment!
List of work to be done:
1. PF3301 Research
2. PF3303 Research
3. MKT2401 Research & group admin stuff
4. Dissertation wrap up
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